From the recording Trying To Get Back On The Bus

Lyrics

85 kills under my belt
but when that ice water in my veins
it began to melt
i was washed away in that flood
of guilt and shame booze & drugs
it was them against us
now it’s just me
trying to get back on the bus

1st one lingered on my mind
then less and less and less and less
each and every time
till it was just lining up them dots
just line’em and take my shot
it was them against us
but now it’s just me
trying to get back on the bus

it may seem like no big deal
to walk thru those doors
sit above those wheels
feel‘em spinning round & round
while your hands shake
and your heart pounds
what it feels like in my shoes
I would never wish on you
or anyone
the things i’ve seen
the things i’ve done

truth is we gotta go way back
before the war before iraq
crosstown bus with my girl
79 i was top of the world
a gun in her back
a knife to my throat
something snapped
something broke
it was them against us
now it’s just me
trying to get back on the bus

i’m living one breath at a time
i know my stop i know my line
i got landmarks along the way
i’m making new ones every day
it ain’t them it ain’t us
it’s just me
Trying to get back on the bus

Written by G & T
Park Slope Women’s Shelter 4.22.19